Hey y’all!
As this year has come to a close, I have reflected on it, and while I have loved all this year as brought me, it has taken a few things with it.
My husband and I had a beautiful little boy, and we grew our family from 5 to 6. While being pregnant has never been my favorite thing, I absolutely loved having this experience with my husband. It brought us closer than ever. I got to see the blessing of my husband becoming a father to our son, even though he’s the best bonus father to our older 3 already. My kids have advanced through life and school. They’ve navigated through changes of adding another baby, friendships, and the growing pains of getting older.
With all of that being such a positive, I almost feel guilty for saying that this year took a lot from me. I became depressed during my pregnancy, and suffer from postpartum depression something fierce. I quit my job in Law Enforcement that I loved so much in order to be around for my kids and my baby more often. I found out that my job was my identity, and without it I felt lost. My inner voice was telling me that I was nothing without a badge. I had no purpose anymore. How was I supposed to protect my family and help people without that shiny thing posted to my chest? I felt worthless. Not to mention all that pregnancy takes from you. Y’all can understand I’m sure.
I decided to do something that I’ve talked about for a while and that was this little store. I love creating and sharing. I love being able to share the gospel in any small way. I love finding new ways to be creative while also assisting my husband in providing for this family, even in some small way.
In saying all of this, what I mean is that no one thing defines you. You are more than your job, you are more than your position at home, and you are worth more than rubies.
So, even if you don’t see anything you like here, maybe this little blog post will be just what you needed to go after whatever it is that you want.
Don’t be scared, just do it. And thank yourself after. ❤️
XO, Hali